These are the hands to which small things come to die
These are the hands to which small things come to die,
A squirrel with torn leg, a geckoling, a butterfly
with broken wing- a baby bird that cannot fly,
All come creeping gently up to this heaving chest,
and lay upon this beating heart
their tired heads to rest.
For these hands are warm, though eyes bereft of tears left to cry,
so these are the hands to which small things all come to die.
A terrible thing to bury,
a baby that you've fed-
So I pluck its listless feathers
from its tail-end and its head
There's still shit on the deep-green surface
remnants of its last meal, smeared in between
immaculate tail-feathers that now have lost
their sheen. How easy they came off, I think,
with minimal tug— those ends still stuck
with bits of flesh- food
for ants and bugs.
And my nose is a world; still strongly filled
with the smells of egg-white-mango-banana-mash and sulfur-shit,
and there in between, the pure aqueous scent
of rainwater flowers,
soft pink rainwater flowers.
O my nose is filled with rainwater flowers!
I've buried a baby— why must I bury
things that were not even mine?
But I buried it under the white-jasmine vine.
Why in my hands must I carry
An entire universe, a miniature world—
for just a few hours, then have it returned
back to dust, back to earth, back to dirt?
For the child may well bury the mother,
—but for the mother to bury the child!
— how, all of human suffering,
encompassed,
my heart does sing.
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